I posted yesterday and promptly started feeling guilty.
"You're such a whiner" ran my thoughts. "You know, SOME people have REAL problems in their lives" was also pitched in. I was raised to feel that you took care of your own troubles and you didn't talk about them. Suck it up and move on.
I've come to realize what a stupid way to go through life that is. It's probably why so many men in my family have died relatively young.
All those problems from yesterday exist. They are a burden to me that feels like it could break my back some days. But it hasn't so far.
Today I got a nice note from a friend encouraging me (you know who you are, even if I don't), I got an encouraging e-mail from a congregation excited about having me come out and help them, I had a good meeting with someone who is "journey-ing" with me from my congregation and I had a great Greek lunch with a group of friends.
I also had an eight year old look at me and say "You look tired".
So the bad stuff must be real, but I'm feeling better and stronger today. And that's all I really need for the moment. To pick up my burdens and move on.